tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-60179058262675891872024-01-06T22:41:02.495-08:00You Can Heal From Sexual AbuseAnnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.comBlogger62125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-54225684337517815152007-09-11T07:26:00.001-07:002007-09-11T07:26:19.980-07:00Panic Attacks in Public<div xmlns='http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml'><p><object height='350' width='425'><param value='http://youtube.com/v/gYPZSmW05PY' name='movie'/><embed height='350' width='425' type='application/x-shockwave-flash' src='http://youtube.com/v/gYPZSmW05PY'/></object></p><p>My second video help.. I love Angela's videos, they are wonderful.<br /><br />Much love to you all,<br /><br />Anna</p></div>Annahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-7313204958766303172007-09-11T07:25:00.001-07:002007-09-11T07:25:10.281-07:00Tell Your Story...<div xmlns='http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml'><p><object height='350' width='425'><param value='http://youtube.com/v/14-T9E333mM' name='movie'/><embed height='350' width='425' type='application/x-shockwave-flash' src='http://youtube.com/v/14-T9E333mM'/></object></p><p>I'm still here -- I want to post, but I've been overwhelmed. And so I thought I'd post two videos instead... I hope they help you.<br /><br />Love, Anna</p></div>Annahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-21004382059344960332007-07-30T02:18:00.000-07:002007-07-30T03:38:17.964-07:00Thank you, Dawn!! Anna's update...Hello, all,<br /><br />It's the real Anna again. Thank you SO MUCH to Dawn for blog'sitting for me during the last 7 hours. I really missed everyone, I know those last hours are sometimes the best fun.. ! But I had slept only three hours the night *before* the blog, and I would have never made it through. It was hard for me to make myself go to bed, but... I know it was the best for my health.<br /><br />And that's what I want for all of you -- the best of health. Take care of yourselves.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.blogathon.org/pledge.php?blogid=327">It's not too late to make a pledge!</a> We have raised unofficially...<br /><br /><em><span style="font-size:85%;">are you ready?</span></em><br /><br />$390...<br /><br />and officially... $290.<br /><br />Is that awesome, or what?!<br /><br /><a href="http://ucanhealfromabuse.blogspot.com/2007/07/maybe-little-something-for-those-who.html">My free magnet/button</a> offer still stands -- no one took me up on it!<br /><br />There is so much more I wanted to write about, but you know how it goes.. 30 minutes goes really fast, and there isn't enough time to get thoughts together everytime between posts.<br /><br />Of my wonderful readers out there, who would like me to keep on blogging healing resources here? I'm thinking to keep going past the blogathon, but I'm not sure yet. I want your thoughts!<br /><br /><br />In any case, keep in touch all you gals and guys!<br /><br />Much love,<br /><br />Anna<br /><br />PS. Don't forget -- if you still want to pledge, you can! <a href="http://www.blogathon.org/pledge.php?blogid=327">Click here.</a>Annahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-86733840893358502072007-07-29T20:57:00.000-07:002007-07-29T21:00:43.669-07:00THE ENDOkay, so here it is...the end.<br /><br />I think the real anna may stop and say her own good bye. But I would like to thank Rachel for being an encouraging monitor, Chris for keeping a newbie company via chat and to abzdrgon, tucker, yeepei and rebekkah_sri for their upbeat comments.<br /><br />Take great care and maybe I'll see ya next year.Annahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-33545953373964249642007-07-29T20:27:00.000-07:002007-07-29T20:34:11.003-07:00Note on the AuthorSo I would like to take the second to last post to say something about the person who founded this blog site. <br /><br />First off she supportive. If i am anything but chipper she is <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">interested</span>.<br /><br />Second she is progressive. She leads the way in supporting women's rights for safety, faith, and self care. <br /><br />Third she is artistic. She can pick a medium and succeed in it. So much to express and so <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">valiant</span> in expression.<br /><br />My friend is a wonderful person to know. I want to thank her for her dedication in supporting this blog even though she was feeling ill. It was an honor to help out. <br /><br />back for the last in 30min.Annahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-40327224917113062032007-07-29T19:56:00.000-07:002007-07-29T20:09:41.469-07:00Movie ListingI've decided to reread an old book, rather than try to start a new one. It is a bit easier to put it down and check the time. So lets see......what can be said. Good movies i've seen this year.<br /><br />#1 Children of Men --- Excellent piece of social commentary, and so is the soundtrack<br />#2 Live Free Die Hard --- How is the fourth sequel good? It was fun<br />#3 Simpson's Movie --- Sigh, the EPA gets attacked again ;)<br />#4 Harry Plopper--- The 5th installment was filmed well. Very tight and not much over drama.<br />#5 Shrek III---I've really got to explore more independent movie options.<br /><br />....see you in 30minAnnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-28676161174355367992007-07-29T19:31:00.000-07:002007-07-29T19:35:50.825-07:00Time FliesI can't believe how short 30min is when you have to check in online. This is very enlightening for sure. Reading is more dangerous than TV, because of the lack of predictable timeline. All shows have a pre-written time to end or sub climax. Books are all about how long it takes you to read them. I am a very slow reader and thus not much happens in 30min, except that I almost forget to post. <br /><br />back in 30minAnnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-76648999895721376032007-07-29T19:06:00.000-07:002007-07-29T19:08:36.975-07:00Mis PostMy last post was a bit early, so <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">I'm</span> sending this out as a HOWDY! to keep the basis covered. Only TWO hours LEFT!!!! Everyone this is hard work and as I've teamed up with someone to do only 25% of the work, i must say Kudos to you all. :)Annahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-62436332376281231162007-07-29T18:43:00.000-07:002007-07-29T18:56:23.735-07:00ReflectionLiving in an apartment designed in the 60's, with only baseline updates since then, is most reflected in the bathroom. There is a huge mirror above the sink. One that starts at the waist and reaches several feet above the person who's image is refracting back. <br /><br />What is the first thing that i look at when i see myself? But of course, my face. It stares back at me asking for some suggestion of why I'm looking at it in the first place. <br /><br />I sigh in disgust and grab the brush.....first think i do is brush my hair. There isn't much of it, so it needs managed. All of it gets brushed back so the knots are out....it then falls in it's genetically predetermined semi-curled, parted position on my shoulders.<br /><br />Next I look at my eyes...those piercing eyes that expected some deep destiny but are stuck with mediocrity. I laugh at them.....flip my hands through my hair again and walk out, inspection complete. <br /><br />Sometimes I wonder why i don't use moose or wear makeup. Other days i'm grateful the time provided by my simplicity. I hope my reflection eventually lets me off the hook. <br /><br />.....back in 30minAnnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-20536305295381039432007-07-29T18:27:00.000-07:002007-07-29T18:31:14.615-07:00Song LyricsOpps, I was going to put the lyrics to a Dar Willams song called Mercy of the Fallen, but I'm not sure if that is allowed. I'll put a link to a site so you can read them. That way everyone is safe. :)<br /><br /><a href="http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/Mercy-of-the-Fallen-lyrics-Dar-Williams/7796743583B6D0E048256D17000A9378">http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/Mercy-of-the-Fallen-lyrics-Dar-Williams/7796743583B6D0E048256D17000A9378</a>Annahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-33973987003663365452007-07-29T18:08:00.001-07:002007-07-29T18:08:28.489-07:00Yea, I went with the soupAnnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-34084758466357600782007-07-29T17:57:00.001-07:002007-07-29T17:59:05.672-07:00Food OptionsRice noodle premade soup bowl, frozen pot pie, or pizza sub......Hummmm What to eat for dinner.Annahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-15268915536570705492007-07-29T17:26:00.000-07:002007-07-29T17:30:02.407-07:00Daylight SavingsSad that it's getting dark outside and it isn't yet 9pm. Sigh, this summer has been so <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">hectic</span> that it is ending before it started. I wonder what I can do to try and enjoy the last embers of the season. I may try and go camping but i think at least a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">mandatory</span> one day hiking trip is the least i can do. Go it alone, take the camera....sounds good. So, if anyone reads this, does this count as talking to oneself? If it does is that a bad thing? <br />;)<br /><br />....see ya in 30minAnnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-14658831977773667582007-07-29T16:53:00.000-07:002007-07-29T16:56:14.334-07:00Bad TimingWell, since I've been posting around the 20's and 50's of each hour, i have been missing the ending of whatever show <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">I'm</span> watching. Yes, <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">admitted</span> TV junkie. <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Anywho</span>....i need to slowly <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">stretch</span> out my blog time or else switch over to reading. The later is probably the better but only after the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">Simpson's</span>. ;)<br /><br />......back in 30minAnnahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-32039377685958063112007-07-29T16:21:00.001-07:002007-07-29T16:28:44.582-07:00The Color of BlogsI always preach about non-profit transparency. Nothing makes me feel more transparent than typing on a blog. That clear or barely opac color that shows all the flaws. I haven't updated my blog since February. I never feel as though I have anything to say. Interesting how, as now I'm doing a favor for a friend, all i seem to do is type. I guess what is really important to us is always just under the surface.<br /><br /><br />....see you in 30Annahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-21490740098398408652007-07-29T15:54:00.001-07:002007-07-29T15:55:03.417-07:00YikesOkay, post...get food... grab laundry out of the dryer = 30min. <br /><br />Wow, does time go fast.Annahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-53804866146201975442007-07-29T15:20:00.000-07:002007-07-29T15:33:55.254-07:00The Hero PriceHero's are great. We love 'em....and all want to be 'em. Or do we? Let's review some recent hero's in popular culture over the past few years. <br /><br />One, Harry Potter....annoying but obvious. <br />Two <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Frodo</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Baggins</span>, yawn..... <br />Three, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Spiderman</span>, Superman, Underdog, and other superhero-<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">comicbook</span>-movie knock offs. <br />Four, John <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">Mclaine</span>/Jason Borne...i wish. <br /><br />What is so attractive about the good guy vs. the bad guy? Why is the good guy always the underdog when we as a society claim to all be 'good people? Whey do i keep using ' ' marks? <br /><br />If we are hurt as children do we always expect to be a victim? Is it hard to trust humans if humans hurt or ignore? The list above shows us our options....we can as harry does...forgive, or as <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">Frodo</span> does, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">comit</span> to change, all superheros provide a consistent deterrent. But my favorite is the last category. They just kick the shit out of the bad guy. No debate or discussion, you hurt me you get hurt. <br /><br />This primal admiration is odd for someone like me, a social worker, to carry when i ought to be the first to forgive. Politically I'm against the death penalty. Personally......well, that is a slightly darker story.<br /><br />see you in 30.Annahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-64864209328444270612007-07-29T14:48:00.000-07:002007-07-29T14:58:10.515-07:00Insulting WebsterMis-Spellers of the world Untie!!!! <br /><br />I must provide a small disclaimer at the beginning of my postings. I, unlike my closest friend, am not a writer/editor. Thus, be prepared for several hours of bad comma usage, run on sentences, and mis-spelled words. Yes, I do use spell check and I is a high school graduate, but not everything they teach sticks. So now gentle reader, consider yourself forewarned. :)Annahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-90508663160697427682007-07-29T14:19:00.000-07:002007-07-29T14:29:16.550-07:00ConsiderationRecovery is an <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">interesting</span> word to describe the healing process. No matter what you are recovering from you are generally never recovered. I had a friend call me today. He said in a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">chipper</span> voice, "So how are you today?". I told him I was recovering. He had not idea how to respond. I should have said, "fine". The socially acceptable answer to how are you, but the truth is that my grandmother died and right after the funeral I became very ill, so I wasn't fine. I'm not going to be fine for a while, and the first people who should know that are the people who came to the funeral. <br /><br />the process of recovery is a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">constant</span> spectrum of good days and bad for those recovering. I have been recovering most of my life as I am too a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">survivor</span> of childhood sexual abuse. Most of the time i say the word 'fine' as I've been <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">culturally</span> trained to do so, but I must admit a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">certain</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">distaste</span> for the word over the last two weeks. <br /><br />....see you in 30.Annahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-22215948568517038022007-07-29T13:56:00.000-07:002007-07-29T13:57:47.480-07:00Taking the WheelHi, This is dawn. Taking over for a few hours. I am not going to be profound in this post because i'm talking on the phone with my best friend. <br /><br />consider this a profound IOU...... ;)Annahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-48641016339928329332007-07-29T13:44:00.000-07:002007-07-29T13:53:09.657-07:00I have a wonderful teammate who will be blogging from now until the end, except if I'm brave, I may show up around the last post, say some good words. Or maybe if I can't wake myself, I will just have to come back and post something then.<br /><br />But the blog will go on! And my bestest friend since I was, like, 13, she is awesome, cool, fun, wonderful, inspiring -- just like me.<br /><br />;-)<br /><br />Everyone, meet Dawn, Dawn, meet everyone...Annahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-64710455979556979492007-07-29T13:25:00.000-07:002007-07-29T13:26:04.661-07:00Just checking in... still talking on the phone...Annahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-64949923751568040152007-07-29T13:05:00.001-07:002007-07-29T13:05:44.573-07:00I'm updating again. :) Talking to my best friend...Annahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-66146358016298486432007-07-29T12:27:00.000-07:002007-07-29T12:28:05.051-07:00Posting again... but too tired to speak much right now. Maybe more next time :)Annahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6017905826267589187.post-61480906559171686172007-07-29T11:54:00.000-07:002007-07-29T11:56:57.878-07:00Book You Should Read: Invisible Heroes: Survivors of Trauma and How They HealThere are many books out there on sexual abuse, and healing from it. I don't really like the books that talk about it too much, I don't know. I want books that really say something, explain to me why I feel the way I do, and don't just say, "It'll get better."<br /><br />I have had trouble finding a book I liked, until just a few months ago. This book is actually not just on sexual abuse – it’s on surviving trauma. But it fits in with sexual abuse, and she talks about it quite a bit.<br /><br />She helped me understand why I feel the way I do, why I can’t sleep, why I can’t stop thinking about it when I want to stop, and more. She also talks about how to use imagery to heal, and this is something that has been a huge help to me. Actually, my therapist recommended this book because of the imagery scripts. <br /><br />If you could buy only ONE book on healing, this is the book I'd tell you to buy. (And I own over 1300 books... yes, really. I, um, like to read.)<br /><br />Check it out on Amazon.com:<br /><br />Invisible Heroes: Survivors of Trauma and How They Heal<br />http://www.amazon.com/Invisible-Heroes-Survivors-Trauma-They/dp/0553803506Annahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09863538499550159638noreply@blogger.com1